Sunday, March 22, 2009

Spring Break... sort of

This week was Tulsa's Spring Break which meant a little break for me. However, the break was a little frustrating. Usually I just see kids at school and not at their homes unless their families are interested in a family session and can't come during school hours. Well, with school out last week, in order to make money I needed to schedule sessions in kids' homes which meant coordinating with parents. I was pretty proud when I left the office last Friday that I had 12 sessions scheduled. This is about half as many kids as I usually see in a week, but I did want a little break and knew it would be difficult to get a hold of and coordinate to schedule many sessions. Well of the 12 sessions I scheduled, I only had 6 sessions which was pretty frustrating especially since many times I drove all the way across Tulsa only to find an empty house. Also, I didn't schedule any sessions on Monday or Friday to give myself a little break, but during the other days some of my no shows or cancellations occurred in the middle of the day, so I couldn't even really enjoy the day off. Although it was frustrating and annoying at times, it made me really thankful for the position I do have. I'm blessed to have gotten a school-based position rather than a home-based position where no shows and late notice cancellations are normal. I'm lucky that most of the time I have total control over how many kids I want to see in a day since all my clients and I are in the same building. It made dealing with the frustrations of spring break more bearable. I'm also very thankful that I am not the primary income earner in our family. It's nice that problems like these are minor nuisances rather than major problems.
I did enjoy my time off though. It was nice to sleep in and be able to enjoy the beautful weather. Rhapsody got taken on a walk everyday and I enjoyed having some down time to relax.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Catching up...

One part of the adult world that I'm not particularly fond of is that as others enter the adult world, that often means major changes including moving. I've experienced that a lot. I have some great friends who have made major moves, and my college roommate Laura is one of them. She moved to Colorado almost two years ago (wow, time flies). Thankfully, she has lots of family in Oklahoma so she comes to visit occasionally. I got to see her this past weekend, and it was really nice to be able to sit and visit in peron and catch up on everything that's been going on in our lives. I had a great visit with her. On that note, I thought it would be fun to revisit some of my favorite memories with her. When I went to OSU, I went potluck on a roommate, and God put Laura and I together. I was so thankful for such a great roommate and now a great friend. So, here's my list of favorite Laura memories.

1. We met in OKC at Olive Garden the summer before we started OSU. This was our first meeting, and I remember Laura telling me that she never planned on getting married and her asking if I was going to marry Matt. I remember driving home thinking that I didn't think I could get a better roommate.
2. Our first night at college. I don't remember everything we did that night, but I know we did a lot and had a great time.
3. Our first semester we both had 7:30 classes. We would both get up, get ready, and walk to class together, all without saying a word to each other. (Neither of us is really a morning person)
4. Collecting Eskimo Joes cups. We spent weeks collecting cups to make lights out of them. We ate at Joes restaurants a lot, only to find out you could actually buy the cups for like $.50 each.
5. Laura met Steve (her husband) during the spring of our first year. It was fun watching her and Steve fall in love and hearing her talk about her relationship with him.
6. Laura, Katie, and I went to Frontier City for a Reliant K concert during our freshman year. I remember we all had a great time but we also talked a lot about how much we missed our guys especially when we rode the ferris wheel.
7. The summer after our freshman year, I visited Laura at her parents' house, and she told me she and Steve were planning on getting married. They had only been dating a few months, and I was pretty surprised.
8. Going wedding dress shopping with Laura and hearing about all of her plans
9. Laura's personal shower and the infamous card Katie, Sarah, and I made for her.
10. Getting to be a part of Laura's wedding. I got to go get Steve and be there when they saw each other for the first time on their wedding day. That was a special moment.
11. Going on walks around Boomer the summer Laura got married and I got engaged. We had some good chats.
12. Calling Laura to tell her I was engaged and wedding shopping and planning with her for my wedding.
13. Girls' nights at Mcallisters and at Laura's apartment
14. Spending snow days together sledding with air mattresses
15. Having tea together at our last girls' day in Stillwater before she moved to Colorado
16. Long chats catching up when she's in OK for visits.
There are a lot more, but these are some highlighs. Hopefully we can make a lot more memories together in the future. Maybe some in Colorado too :)


We look really young in this picture. I think this was taken the day we moved into the dorms. That seems like forever ago
(August 2003)
Enjoying some chocolate!
(Winter 2004)

Air Hockey at Chuckee Cheese
(Spring 2004)
This is one of my favorite pics
(Fall 2005)

Laura's wedding
(May 2005)
Katie's wedding
(August 2006)
Snow Day in Stillwater
(Winter 2007)

My Wedding
(May 2006)
My Birthday
(February 2007)
Our Last Girls' Day in Stillwater
(May 2007)
Laura, I hope you read this and laughed along with me. Thanks for some great memories!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Seeing Change

In my field, the ultimate goal is seeing change. The hard part is we work with people and there isn't really an operational definition for change which can make our job frustrating. I remember a conversation this past summer with my cohort when we were discussing our "plan B" in life if we decided not to do therapy. I remember cake decorating, flipping houses, and interior designing being mentioned in our plans and we realized that all of our plan Bs involved a career in which there was a finished product at the end. We got to see completion and had evidence of our work. I think we are always looking to find an end and to say "See, that's change". We run into problems when our definition of change differs from our clients and sometimes its discouraging to not have a clear standard that says, "Here's your finished product."

I say all this because this is something I've always struggled with, but in my new role at school, the struggle seems even greater. When I was at the CFS at OSU, most of our work involved multiple members of a family (couple, parent/child, entire family etc). The more members of a system that are present the more opportunities there are for the system to be shaken up and for change to occur. Also, my role was to be a brief therapist and to influence change to occur in a few weeks or months. Now that I'm at a middle school, 90% of the time I am only working with one member of the family system and I'm doing long-term therapy which a lot of times feels more like maintanence than therapy. With all that being said, I've had a hard time seeing change in my clients. I usually only see them in a school context which makes it even harder to notice the change. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really needed or if I have anything to offer the kids I see.

That changed this week, and I was able to see change occur within a session and felt valuable and needed in my role. I won't go into detail because of confidentiality but one of my clients was having a crisis in his family. This kid has been pretty quiet and slow to open up with me, so I was surprised when one of his teachers stopped me in the hall and told me he was looking for me. When I met with him he was visibly upset and crying. I talked with him a little bit and clarified some feelings for him. He also mentioned that spending time with another person was helpful when he was having a hard time, and I was able to get that person and we all met together for the last half of the session. By the end of the session, the student's mood had changed tremendously. I could tell having someone actually pay attention to him and meet his immediate needs had enabled him to relax and let go of some of his stress. He was smiling, being talkative and even laughing some by the end of the session. It was really incredible that I was able to see such change occur in only 45 minutes. I felt really blessed to have been able to minister to him.

Through that situation, I also learned that I am valuable in my position and I have an influence on these kids even when I don't realize it. I spent the last 2 1/2 years trying to define what change is in families and how it occurs in a therapy setting. My definition has changed some since I'm in this new role. Now I believe that change occurs mainly through a relationship especially when I'm working with kids. If I hadn't taken the time to play games with this student, learn about his family, let him tell me jokes and what he likes to do for fun, he probably wouldn't have felt safe to find me when he was in crisis. I learned that, a trusting, caring relationship is HUGE for me to have any influence in their lives. I had another student who has slowly started telling me about a major traumatic event in her life which she refused to even mention and told me she didn't want to talk about it when I first met with her. I'm slowly starting to see the door open, and my kids are letting me in more and more. I'm also realizing that even when it feels like nothing is happening, change probably is occurring but may not be evident until later. Mainly I'm writing this as a reminder to myself that I can never put too much emphasis on establishing and maintaining a trusting relationship with my students and to remind myself that I am valuable for these kids even if it doesn't seem like it every session.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

We experienced one of our first unpleasant homeowner experiences this weekend. I wanted to blog about it because, although when it happened it felt like a major ordeal, I know when I go back and read this post a few months from now, it will seem like a small stressor and will be a reminder to not sweat the small things in life. I think I've also learned a few valuable lessons from the experience.

Friday afternoon, before we left town, Matt noticed that some of the popsicles in the freezer were melting. The freezer was still cold so we assumed one of us had accidentally left the door ajar. Well, when we got back from Weatherford on Sunday night, Matt checked the freezer and everything was melted including about 10 packages of chicken breasts and close to 15 pounds of hamburger meat we had stocked up on about a month ago. We were able to salvage most of the meat since it was still cold by temporarily storing it in ice chests. That was a stressful night. After the fridge was fixed, I went on a huge cooking spree and refroze the cooked meat. On Monday, the report from the repairman was even more stressful. They had to replace the compressor which cost us several hundred dollars. When Matt called me with the news, I got a pit in my stomach. I'm known to be stressed out easily and find it hard to relax once I'm stressed. I spent time in prayer on Sunday night about the situation praying that we didn't have to buy a new fridge. God was faithful in answering my prayers in multiple ways. For one, although the repair was much more expensive than we were hoping, we did not have to buy a new fridge, and secondly and probably more amazingly, shortly after that phone call with Matt, I felt an incredible peace the rest of the day and didn't dwell on the expense or worry about the fridge at all. I love how God is so faithful in the little things. This experience has also given me the opportunity to remember how blessed Matt and I are.

1. We have a refrigerator full of food
2. This is a minor financial burden not a major one for us.
3. We received our tax refund just a couple of days before the fridge broke
4. I now have pounds and pounds of precooked chicken and ground beef that will make cooking in the future faster and easier.
5. This sounds silly, but I kept thinking about this. I had faith that my refrigerator and freezer would keep my food cold and frozen. It failed me. I keep thinking how blessed we are that God is always faithful and will never fail us.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Lyda's Wedding

Matt and I went to OKC for Lyda's wedding on Friday. It was such a beautiful wedding. I loved hearing about all the preparations during the last few months, and then seeing it all put together. Lyda looked so gorgeous. She was glowing the entire night. It was great seeing everyone again too, though a little bittersweet this time. We've all known since we graduated that we had a scheduled time we would all be together again which was Lyda's wedding. Now with Lyda in Chicago and Stephanie in Lubbock, who knows when we can have another reunion. I love and miss these girls a lot and hope we can schedule something soon.

I think since I've been married, going to weddings has taken on a different significance. When I went to weddings when I was single, it was always fun to dream about my wedding and what I would do the same or different. Now that I'm married, when I see a couple exchanging wedding vows, it is a reminder of the commitment Matt and I made on our wedding day and what the promises we said really meant. I view it as an opportunity to evaluate my marriage and see if my actions match the promises I made to Matt on our wedding day.

After the wedding, we headed to Weatherford for the rest of the weekend. We were pretty lazy and just played games and watched the Bedlam game. We did manage to take the dogs for a walk at the walking trail. That was a lot of fun. We hadn't been there in several years. Matt and I have some very special memories at the walking trail. In fact I think both of us would agree that that was the place we really fell in love. We would spend lots of evenings walking around asking each other questions. I remember all the times one of us would say, "Really, me too!" It was fun reminiscing about the early times in our relationship. Rhapsody enjoyed Missy's company and a change of scenery for her walks. That night my grandparents came over and we all played dominoes which was fun.



I had to post this picture of Rhapsody, because we experienced a milestone this weekend with her. We actually saw her run out of energy, completely. I think it might have been a combination of the excitement of the car ride to Weatherford, getting in so late Friday night, playing nonstop with Missy all day and night on Saturday, the trip to the walking trail, and the time change but she is still recovering and not totally herself. She slept the entire trip back to BA on Sunday, and this dog never sleeps in the car. She always acts nervous and runs back and forth from one window to the other, but she was out. We could really tell she was exhausted when we got back on Sunday night and she slept while we were eating dinner. I have never seen her sleep while there was a hint of the smell of food in the air. Also, even this morning she was tired. She usually gets up with us in the morning and hangs out with us in the bathroom while we are getting ready. We'll throw toys for her and she usually has a decent amount of energy. This morning I was getting ready and she wasn't at my feet, so I went looking for her. I found her curled up in her bed in the laundry room. She seems to mostly be back to herself now, but still seems to be a little tired. It's a nice feeling to know that at some point there is an end to her energy even if we don't see it very often.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Top 10 Favorite Things About My Job

I've noticed that most of the time it's a lot easier to complain about something than to be thankful for things. On that note, I wanted to record some of my favorite things about my job to keep me mindful of the blessings I experience on a daily basis.

10. I have a job. (This is a big one especially the way the economy is right now. I don't want to ever take that for granted).

9. Barring special circumstances (occasional evening family sessions), I get home around 4 or 4:30 everyday

8. I usually always get to be the "good guy" at school that is on the kids' side

7. The school social worker at my school is amazing. She always answers my questions and is a huge help. I can talk about cases with her, and she is a Christian. (Also, did I mention she is married to a Matt, has a Westie the same age as Rhapsody and lives in Broken Arrow) Eating lunch with her is probably one of the highlights of my work day.

6. I get paid for playing Uno, Jenga, Life, and Sorry. I never realized how therapeutic just having undivided attention is for these kids. I love it when kids tease me that they're going to beat me at whatever we play. (I don't go easy on them :))

5. I laugh a lot. Middle schoolers are soooo funny even when they don't mean to be.

4. I get to be a listening ear to kids' dreams and aspirations and encourage them.

3. Although it's sad to think that for many of these kids their time with me is the only time they get to be the center of attention, it's great to be able to provide that for them and let them tell me their stories.

2. I get to find the good in kids. I get paid to look past the fighting, bullying, bad grades, and disrespect toward teachers and find kids' strengths and positive attributes that can help them be resilient.

1. I have an incredible opportunity to show the love of Christ to kids who have little hope for their future. Although ethically, I can't share my beliefs with my students, I can show them Christ through my actions and love on them and minister to them. What a blessing!

Birthday Celebration Continued

This past weekend, Matt and I went on a mini vacation that was only 15 miles away. Since I got my birthday off from work, we both took last Friday off to spend the day together. We stayed at a cute Bed and Breakfast Thursday night and spent Friday touring the Philbrook and doing a little shopping. It was nice to escape reality for a little while and to enjoy a three day weekend. Thursday night we checked in and then went and ate at PF Changes in Utica Square. It was a fun treat going to a nice restaurant on a weeknight. We enjoyed breakfast Friday morning, and then headed to the Philbrook.
On the balcony of the Bed and Breakfast, enjoying the view of downtown

Our Room




The sun room at the B and B

We both had a good time at the Philbrook. It was neat to see once. The house was beautiful with hand carved wood and hand painted ceilings. They had a traveling exhibit of Masterpieces of Photography. I think that was our favorite part. They had photos of famous people, places, and war. It seemed more of a history exhibit than an art one which is probably why we both liked it so much. The gardens were beautiful. I can't imagine how they look in the Spring and Summer when everything is green and blooming. Hopefully, we can make a trip back to see them then. I wish it wasn't so cold so we could have enjoyed the outdoor scenery more.




Part of the Gardens



The Philbrook Villa


After the museum, we went to lunch and did a little shopping at the mall. Matt got a new shirt for work and we got a new water filter for our fridge. After that we went to a couple of furniture stores. We've started saving for bedroom furniture, so we went browsing, mainly to get an idea of the cost, so we would know how much to plan for. We found a set we both really liked at Basset Home Furnishings. They have quality furniture, but you pay for the quality. Needless to say, we'll probably be saving for awhile. I was relieved to have found a set we both liked. We had looked at Mathis Brothers a couple of months ago and found absolutely nothing either one of us liked. I was afraid the search was going to be extra frustrating and stressful, but it was nice to know there is a set out there that we love! I think we both had a great time. It's really nice to take a break and be stress free for a few days. I hope we can do it again soon.
The rest of our weekend was pretty low key. I had another of those grad school moments on Saturday. This time it wasn't a good one. We actually had to clean house on a Saturday. Although my evenings were crazy during school, every semester except one (I'm still trying to forget how awful that second Spring semester was), I had a block of time on Friday afternoons that I dedicated to cleaning/laundry/grocery shopping. I'm starting to miss those Friday afternoons because I really don't like cleaning house on Saturdays, but I did. Matt helped by dusting and vaccuuming. I hope to eventually get into a routine and clean a little each night, so I don't have to worry about it on the weekends. That's usually the last thing I want to do in the evening though, and I don't even think about it. We also had a chance to watch OSU beat Texas on Saturday which was a pleasant surprise. I will admit, that although I'm a loyal OSU football fan, I'm a fair weather basketball fan. Matt had to convince me to watch the game on Saturday. I just get depressed remembering back my freshman and sophomore years of college at how good we were compared to now. It was a good game though, and our new coach is a big improvement over Sean Sutton. Hopefully we'll make it to the tournament. We also gave Rhapsody and bath and trimmed her nails. She did a lot better this time, probably because Matt was bribing her with his left over chicken from dinner after I finished each paw. Whatever works though.